Terrified

I am so scared. On top of all of the stress I'm dealing with on closing on our house I got a call from my OB/GYN's office and it was not a good call.

They told me that there is some yeast growing, but that can be fixed with an over the counter medication. "No problem", I said. That's not too big of a deal right? Then they told me that my pap smear came back abnormal.

I have never had an abnormal pap before and there couldn't be a worse time for it. They said that they found HPV cells which are the cells that cause cervical cancer. The nurse that called couldn't tell me anything more. She said that the doctor will talk to me about it in detail when I go to my appointment on March 4th.

I'm a worry wart anyway, but now I have a baby that I'm carrying. My sister-in-law had HPV cells once and they had to be surgically removed. I can't have surgery until after the baby is born. What if they tell me I have to terminate my pregnancy so that I can have the surgery to save my life?

I fear the worst, but I'm really hoping that the cells are benign and that I'll be able to carry the baby full term. I'm hoping that the doctor will tell me they just need to watch me more closely and consider my pregnancy high risk. I am so terrified. These next nine days until my next appointment are going to be the longest nine days of my life.